i was very happy for a short moment today when my heart burst into joyous fireworks. cos of something. duh. but it wouldn't be very appropriate to say everything here.

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this is dedicated to the GKSs of the world.... and some.

Michelle Branch - Are You Happy Now?

Now, don't just walk away
Pretending everything's ok
And you don't care about me
And I know there's just no use
When all your lies become your truths and I don't care
Yeah yeah yeah

Could you look me in the eye
And tell me that you're happy now, ooh~
Would you tell it to my face or have I been erased
Are you happy now?
Are you happy now?

You took all there was to take,
And left with an empty plate
And you don't care about it
And I, I've given up this game
I'm leaving you with all the blame cause I don't care
Yeah yeah yeah

Could you look me in the eye?
And tell me that you're happy now, ooh~
Would you tell it to my face or have I been erased,
Are you happy now?
Are you happy now?

Do you really have everything you want?
You could never give something you ain't got
You can't run away from yourself

Could you look me in the eye?
And tell me that you're happy now

Come on tell it to my face or have I been erased,
Are you happy now?
Are you happy now?

Would you look me in the eye?
Could you look me in the eye?
I've had all that I can take
And I'm about to break
Cause I'm happy now, ooh~
Are you happy now?

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a boy once told me that i could never change, as much as i wanted to. he said that i could try to think that i'm above it all and that i can let go but i would fail.

i would fail miserably and horribly, because it's just so typical of me.

ok yeah, i admit i like to hold it and grip it tightly and never let go, but that doesn't mean you can judge me. you are judging me, based on what little you have seen of me, and little you have seen of everyone else that you've been judging so far.

you think you know so damn much, but you're so darn wrong because you're clouded by all your biases and prejudices. not to say i'm not, but i'm above you and that's all that matters. it's satisfaction in laughing silently to myself, controlling myself and marvelling at how you make such a self-righteous mockery of yourself.

i would like to remind you i'm the intuitive one here, and you definitely are not. gosh, your gut feeling is terrible, your alimentary canal probably got mangled somewhere in all that darkness.

the boy was indian, i was chinese and we had plenty of malay and angmoh friends. mmm. very good. haochi. sedap. very racially harmonious. indeed.

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i'm thankful for all my friends. and i'm happy now.
are you happy now?
quixoticka eulogized @ 8:59:00 pm