Pretty duh statement, huh. It seems so surreal, such a swirling rush, that everything was sucked away and ended so quickly without the slightest warning.

I was late today. As usual zh.iwei was doing the bus stop entrance duty, and I went, "Last day already, tomorrow I'm graduating, what's the point of booking me?" And he told me that he had to do it still. Isn't that like so rigid. The inflexibility of the system. Why? Do they wanna add one more black mark to my lifecard or what? Heck. Lessons were pretty much uneventful. They went off without a bang. Lifeskills was terrible too. No FTs except for the start who quickly left.

The Arts @ The Atrium was not bad. I guess you could say it was quite heartening to see so many Sec4s who turned up to support the event. Haha, in fact, the only audience were Sec4s and teachers. Not bad lar, quite good, some of the items. Yeah. That's all I'm saying.

The heavy thunderstorm later was like what the hell! Atmospheric devices? Hah. Hmm, as Der.ek said, the heavy rain to symbolize harshness and pain, with the tears.

The graduation ceremony rehearsal was quite sad case. And omg, I can't believe how unlucky I am ok, haha, to be part of the few who are affected by the damn leaking roof! Shit! What if it rains tomorrow? Then dunno where to sit leh, imagine going up as a drenched bitch. Ok, whatever.

Only half the class or so were around to clean tables and the classroom. Hmm, and something happened to something inside, which only be.nuel, ha.rold, jos.hua, ronn.ie and yis.ian know about, hahahahahahahahaha. It is damn mad and damn crazy but, LOL. Can't say here. -bounces on springy thingy and hurls plastic projectiles across the room-

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All in all, my RI life has been quite shitty, and I don't really wish to expound on it here. There are some nice people and some nice events and times, but generally, the place has been a hellhole. Especially how the facilities and backstabbing desensitize you, that you almost feel close to nothing about leaving. tian xia wu bu san zhi yan xi, the food looked good but those at the table sucked, so what does it matter if you take ambrosia in the company of wolves. They don't appreciate it, but they lust for your meat.

I guess I shouldn't sound so negative right, but hah. Should it be that I refused to enter a different level, or that I had too high expectations, or that I was just unlucky to be born into the wrong reality. Perhaps in some alternate universe which I know nothing of, I'm this huge strapping hunk but it's the world in Forster's The Machine Stops.

You know, I wonder why they make primary school 6 years, secondary school 4 and JC 2. It's like, progressively shorter and shorter. Are they trying to intensify the feeling of ageing, or intensify the mugging? Someone once said that time passes by faster and faster as you grow older and you won't even notice it.

Is that because of the increasingly small time fraction theory, or because when you were younger you had less to worry about?

quixoticka eulogized @ 9:47:00 pm