i look at all the names and the long list and i go whoa. and i wonder what's the motive. the purpose. the highest level (damn ss). why they all appear there. what is going on.

i think i think too much. damn happy lar, reborn already lor. great!

i'm stuck in this fucking pool of shit.

damned rut. he2 zhe2 zhi1 fu4. somebody saaaaaaaaave me, i don't care how you do it just save me.

why am i so unlucky?

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you know, at times it looks so good, and then when u take a step back its just crap again. and then again i think i think too much. i try. i really do try. i try to let go of such things. but when i look at that title falling off the charts and the ranks of most-clicked or something, i go whoa. what's going on now.

is it something wrong? is it something i did? is it me?

i know i shouldn't care. the internet isn't real. it's virtual. at the end of the day, we must not allow ourselves to every caprice of the damned-4 letter craze.

screw it..

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just what is wrong with me?
everyone's so happy, except me.
i know i shouldn't be complaining, i have it better off than some poeple, not alot, but still.
and again i think too much. but if we don't think, won't we become dead.
is metacognition wrong then. that's a double sin. i dunno.

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whatever lar. on a much happier note.

NO MORE PHYSICS

FOR LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

TO HELL WITH YOU.

and cambri.dge is cheapo, they reuse questions like mad. stupid angmoh pricks.

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maybe i should just kill myself. not because i can't take it, but because i'd be doing the world a favour. now let me go do one million hours of community service and hope for good karma, and hope reincarnation really exists. yay. bye.
quixoticka eulogized @ 10:44:00 pm