ok so gradnite ended a few days ago. just too spas-ed out to write anything.

spent the whole morning and day and night before trying to do something damn stupid for it all which got ruined by the vengafuckshit that i mistakdly brought and that the fucking nigger kept on playing, and should be shot for his utter lack of taste and panache (which of course i don't have either but definitely in proportions more than his)

so anyway, met up with them at 5.30 to pass that fiasco of a shit, and then went to the room at 6.30 !!!

augh, then was a mad rush for a quick shower and a quick iron which joshua kinda ruined the backpart ha but nevermind and ended up with this cowboy-avril lavigne rubbish especially with the tie whom some people said was a copy but who cares and ugly looking gel and whatnot.

came in late with style with the rest at 7.05 but it didn't matter since the people only started streaming into the ballroom at 7.35 and the whole thing started only after 8.

the registration was terrible and very lousy, people were registering again and again even though jial.un said "i need to see everyone's face". so of course following that, certain people would have a higher chance of winning because their names appeared more than once inside that ghastly looking fishbowl. nice grad cd though.

the food sucked too, except the desert. the cheesecake thing was quite nice, the seafood thingie as well, and some of the meat. but buffet is really shitty, could only go for one helping, and after that all was gone. thank goodness for the muslim table with delicious prata, which strangely enough, only had one muslim who sometimes wasn't even at that table.

performances was kinda trite too. they should have limited it to one song per band or group or person or whatever cos it ended up very draggy, forcing people to stay in their seats instead of socialising. and btw, fa.hyik's singing has improved tremendously. good job.

can't believe my bad luck. 8 people at the table, and 4 of them win something. obviously, i wasn't one.

the best dressed competition was very inane especially with that neo-wannabe, who suddenly appeared from nowhere after being a non-entity for four years. as josh's sister says (according to him), "every year there's some idiot who wears a trench coat"

another thing to note was that the table were not where they were supposed to be in the original seating plan. i definitely remember 32 being in the middle of the seating plan when we first registered, and somehow it was shifted to the side during that night, fuck the stupid people who swtiched it.

probably the most disappointing thing was the disco (sheesh) which was touted to last till 1am in the morning. well, it ended after half an hour, and was dominated by 3 people (i'm not complaining about this part). was very funny to see people who don't normally groove (including me) getting down, but well. the rasputin was GOOD. think everyone really enjoyed themselves with that one. i shall not comment about the style of dancing that was different from most people's. i think i've heard and said enough about it.

and of course, everything that'd been done for one whole day and more was ruined by the venga pollution, as i've said before. i'm so sorry it's my fault. so suddenly the lights come on and i finally know how all the people in the hk dramas feel when suddenly a police raid comes in and the bright lights shine accusingly on your face. you know why people lose their inhibitions at a disco? we had no alcohol, but it was cos there was dim lighting, and so people just do whatever they like. so when the fiery-hot light glares at your face you suddenly feel guilty and broken and are snapped out of your reverie. ah well.

it was fun though.

i am not posting or sending anyone my photos because you would laugh. 1. the numbers aren't substantial enough and more importantly 2. i look fugly in them.

yah so after that disappointment and that lame-ass excuse of 1. covering up for a lack of a better plan and 2. covering up for real sexuality, we had to be satisfied with "i need to watch the soccer match later on"

and you wonder why only 2 men were sharing the room.

oh yeah, forgot to mention msjoh.nson who's a very good singer, and so is des.mondtay

ok, then there was a lot of balloon collecting and we brought the whole huge bundle back to the hotel room, which was quite stuffed with 7 people already. the hotel is lousy, probably 3 star or something, only getting an upgrade to its supposed 5star name because of the dfs. xw is cunning at risk, but not before i ripped josh 2 new assholes. and derek just sits back and relies on his niceness to make sure people don't attack him. and because either i'm a bitch or because i don't look good so people won't have a crush on me, i was the first target.

ah well, secret mission risk could have been my game if not for josh's stupid meddling interfering "hand of god" role he played.

then jyap, bala, rons and ben came in and really upped it up to more than 10. we got a german fucker next door who called once and came by once to tell us to shutthefuckup and there was once when benw.oon came by and i thought he was the german man when i looked thru the peephole. oops.

so anyway there was benuel lying on the bed and talking about how he's gonna catch the first train home and bitching about everything and anything and talking about balloon fetishes and how its the only one he doesn't understand. then suddenly jyap starts talking about some hi5 show he watched (ok now we get to see what he does in his free time) and how the woman with the PUPPETS was rubbing balloons up and down her boobs and talking about static electricity and how he started demonstrating it to us too what with our large collection of balloons and then there was xw who brought out the sugar packets like some of those magician assisstants and whoa lo and behold! it was total corn. esp jyap's dumb bartrick which i owe him money now urgh.

then there was bala with his starry translucent pussy. think he was drunk or something. 'nuff said.

ben and i couldn't stop laughing about the meditation thing. yeah xw i know you read this sometimes. its not the act actually, but the sight of jyap joining in was truly hilarious. must be something about the groupies.

then at 6.30 in the morning there was this funny taiwanese show on tv with dickhead banana puppets on tv as well as this man cross-dressing as a grandma-nanny and there was this octopussy cartoon story where they started doing this round-robin thing and alternatingly painting each other's houses different colours and there aws this ugly fatman clown who i think was probably the cross-dressing nanny who was flying on this porcelain-spoon magical carpet thingie. then there was an wuyahui-lookalike who was pregnant and was jumping around in hoola hoops and looked much more enthusiastic than the spastic psychomotor kids. probably all hers with down syndrome. or ups. or whatever.

slept at 7.30 and woke up at 9.30 and went off for breakfast with the rest as well as some lan before going home.
somehow i find using undead easier than nightelf.

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all in all i must say that gradnite was rather disappointing. oh well. fitting end to a not-so-fitting 4 years. the theme of the past 4 years was angst and disappointment.

now it's time to move on to new things. like, uh. happiness. and joy. and hardwork. and getting recognised for it. i hope. i wish.

ah well we'll see about that in a month's time.

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so as my 4 years officially closes and i find myself stuck in the limbo of nothign much to do for another month, i got to make my roundofthanks to everyone in sch who's had some type of impact or another.

- wc, hy, euj and Z for the times when we were still younger and more innocent and doing less stupid things.
- 2h-ians i got to know better later on like hon.gmun and mark.
- derek and shane for tolerating my rubbish for 4 years.
- 4e guys who have been really great fun and laughter (despite what other purportedly more fun classes like 4d say about us) like jos.hua, haro.ld and be.nuel among many others.
- my lab partner ji.awei and your corny crap.
- editors, here's to something nice when we come back next yr. pizza. haha.
- npcc, berns, remember how it all started at the armory talking about someone, that was so mmm lol. and the camps when we were older, really great, esp that rubbish at the foot of the spiral stairs at 3 in the morning during atc. wc, you know what you've done and we know what you want.
- cdc, re.eve, d.ho, pq, benn.y, be.nng, here's to finding your taohuayuan one day.
- 1b littl'uns, good luck in your future endeavours in this monstrous institution.
- fellow psls.
- my fellow WEP-ers, ha.dri, ma.tin and xtian, thanks for the fonecalls, hospitality and jokes respectively.
- just cos u dont fit anywhere else : zc and kenlim.
- teachers like mrf.ong, mrsal.bar, mrsta.nmh, mss.oh, md.msu, mrl.it, mrsy.au, mrsf.oo, mrjw.ong, mrsl.eow, msela.inequah, mrp.aullim.
- whoever else i missed.

i dunno why i'm doing this, i must be mad, but thanks to bronzedB, tasdevil, wx, and a law-abiding figure of authority both in real and reel life. there are probably others, but not enough to show the -ve, more like the +ve. these really show it. there. denouement is complete.

may we meet again.
quixoticka eulogized @ 4:59:00 pm