at the risk of incurring a religious debate spanning a few other blogs, i'd like to take this moment to question why all the christians i've talked to in school are averse to the idea of speaking in tongues. i suppose that's what you get for growing up in a charismatic (i finally know the meaning and implication) church. something that seems normal to me, or at least acceptable and never questioned, is now put under heavy hellfire (excuse the pun or the trying to connect to one) in a social microscope.

i'm not one with all the historical religious background. perhaps i should go talk to beano about it. is there really something wrong with it? i mean, for crying out loud, it was desired and not feared or reviled. i know you could fake it maliciously, or you could fake it unconsciously if you so wanted to, but why can't it be real. i suppose it never ocurred to me that devil tongues could come in during like, a holy congregation. but gosh, if they were -really- that holy, or if the presence of God could be felt, what's dark forces doing there? it just doesn't make sense.

seems like silly reasons are being come up. like fear and how it's unnatural and all. hmm.

anyway, came back from school today finally feeling -abit- useful about stuff, and abit more excited now, after having the various songs drilled into my head. and somehow i decided that i'm gonna learn that hideous psychomotor monster again, and try to be serious about it now. unlike some people who totally don't know what they want, and i question their existence in certain bodies of organisations.

shit, i am not reading my books quickly enough. i suppose i can forget the prequel, or any eliot stuff. eliot's like, so painful to read. and i figured that all my time at fencing before was like, a waste of time since it's not even counted at all. and since i only went to clementi once, and they didn't take my attendance then, then i suppose i'm probably not in then. i haven't bought any stuff whatsoever and yada yada. so i guess, i'm out. shit. now i've got to find a cca.
quixoticka eulogized @ 8:42:00 pm