eh. they're all so heartless and machiavellian and conniving. eh, what should i do? eh. why am i even here in the first place? screw it. ah well. i'm here already, i might as well just go ahead with it, as jose says. sheesh, if there's really something in me, i'd have seen it in me a long time ago. don't tell me 2 people a year older than me saw it before me? if they did, kudos to them but i doubt i'm really up for it. this is just damned weird.

and im pissed with RJhumansdept. why the hell wasn't arts even given notice about CAP at all? i think that says enough about the supposed lack of elitism that some people just CRAVE so much so that humans will be better ( i guess it means that arts can go down even further and there'd be nothing to it then, right? ) - there you have it, right in your face. don't get me wrong, i have humans friends and i love them and i'd like to join it myself but i think it's just ridiculous. you're saying that just cos we didn't get 6 or 7 points for our difficult prelim papers, we are then deemed as humanitarian illiterates and can't write a decent stanza of poetry?! i'd have you know that i've written like about 20 or so, and even though they may mostly not conform to your sonnets or bonnets or whathaveyou- i'd like to think that we'd all would have a fair chance.

oh, and as benuel says, we're "not supposed to know about it". wow. how subtle and all of the humans dept. discrimination at its best. i may sound like i'm blowing steam, i may not even want to try out for CAP, but that isn't the point. most arts people may not even give a shit about CAP, but that doesn't mean that we shouldn't hear about it. i know that the humans would probably come out with higher quality stuff than me or my classmates (most of them, anyway), but we're all from the same faculty, and i don't think that's the way things should be. well, first it was the party and now this. i suppose no one could really be blamed for the party but this takes the cake. (i never imagined that i'd ever say this but) GG MAN, GG. humans dept, you've just increased the rift between the two factions within your faculty. GG indeed. since i can't be trusted to write anything worth. GG.

anyway, checked out the tunnel today. it's damn boring but it's a novel experience. try it someday before this junkyard collapses in a pile of sodom and gomarrah. i sure as hell wouldn't want me or you or anyone else to become the next pillar for someone else to bump into while checking out miniature regular quadrilaterals. seriously, no.

i'm also rather miffed with certain people who count their chickens before they're hatched. god, what an arrogant thing to do! openly displaying a little bit of this and a little bit of that, slyly dropped or no, so that people will pick it up and sniff it and smell it reeking of your grosspride. i'd like to see the day when you fail, then what will happen? when the bonds you've broken to achieve newer, better, and higher things falls just slightly away from you. i'd like to see you indeed, when everything is cold and you've lost it all. because you were arrogant. and that is disgusting. never assume anything until it actually happens.

i really love Madonna.
quixoticka eulogized @ 11:16:00 pm