hmm. had my hair cut today. i think it makes me look like a mat now, damn fugly. -shrugs- and no one seems to know what a mat is. they all assumed that i cut a flat-top. stupid people. and i know you're reading this, cos you do and you asked me about it. don't take my insult to heart. oh well. as i was walking towards the barbershop, i saw an interesting sight. a buttress root (i remember my primary school science ok) that had pierced through the very middle of the concrete pavement, and continued on its way. shows you the very strength of nature eh. feels so literary. you know, like how lawrence is such a nature freak. i suppose naturalistic imageries are so expansive and easy to come up with anyway, but never mind that. it's such a major theme, and lit-ty people are supposed to be all in tune with it. i suppose i am. i like huge bodies of water. and i like green. but i waste paper like no one's business. erps. scratch that.

anyway, what's up with all these hc people man! like coming to rjc is some huge disaster.. as if the sky's fallen on their heads, total armageddon and end of days like. and all rushing back to hc to do their silly little appeals, makes the massive(?) preparation for 02 such a joke. i suppose i'd have the same reaction if i were posted to hc, but it wouldn't have happened anyway, since my grades allow me to go anywhere. isn't it ridiculous that the top jc in singapore has a higher cutoff point than a jc that wasn't? doesn't that make the A levels a mockery? and that the only thing that decides the cutoff is its demand? i mean, it's the same for secondary schools too, but i still find it a very lame system. such a thing never really affected me, but it really screws up with the heads of other not so lucky people. i mean, it's like, your fate's decided on the whims and fancies of a whole body of people, for eg the mass exodus of rgs girls away from raffles.

conversely, those from nj and vj seem very keen to come in. perhaps it's like a coveted 1,2 placing thing. anything worse than top 2 is bad, because basically everything below is a shifting mess. anderson and ac in top 5?! eh, maybe they're right man. rj was fun in the first 3 months. but now with everyone's gripe about someone or another coming in, we've been told to expect an influx of shit. no wonder it becomes crappy. but i shouldn't complain, i'm not in a position to. because i'm something along those lines, even if i've been in this college earlier. i mean, if they can have a second chance, surely i can have a second chance to. and that means i should just keep my mouth shut and stop bitching, if i don't want people to bitch about me. but then again, it isn't called a provisional scholarship for nothing.

see you guys in school tomorrow.
quixoticka eulogized @ 9:25:00 pm