hmm. i really have to stop turning in at 2 every night, and ending up sleeping at inopportune times throughout the whole day. it's really messing around with me and SCREWING up my life, spoiling schedules and plans and moods and everything. F. i suppose my retribution for such is having stunted growth since god knows when. i hate this i hate this i hate this. from one of the tallest to one of the shortest. and the energy zapped! all these enervating snoozefests are just doing me harm.

my interview, was bad. it was around 5min or so, and they asked me really pathetic questions. you know, one way i could look at it was they decided they wanted me even before i entered based on my resume so they were just killing time. another way was cos my earlier responses were so bad that they decided not to waste their time and effort to continue probing and delving deeper. i have a feeling it's the latter, really. oops. just another dip in life. i'm just going down down down all the way straight down to the abyss.

i may be better, but that means nothing if everytime something of that nature crops up, i die. it really interferes and screws up with you and your relationships? just give me honorary status already, ok? i mean, what's the point of clinging on so tight to things like that the past week or so, but still feeling a sense of emptiness about it? i'm just really pathetic. god, you'd think that with the long amount of time things would get better. but let me tell you, none of me nor them is any better. we're all just keeping up a facade for you guys.

to the salt n peppa gal: haha, there really isn't anything much to it lar. you guys are all reading too much into the whole thing.
my self worth has washed itself down the toiletbowls. i need OUT soon. there must be something/one to save me, somewhere, somehow.

and yet you walk on by me pretending i don't exist. quit messing with my head.
quixoticka eulogized @ 11:28:00 pm