hmm. wellza. what's up lately?

i got my 15 tags! (and more!!!) duty paid in full, but there are so many freeloaders out there! shame on you, people. that's the problem with public goods, man. (econs, as helen of rjc would attest to) you stand to lose all the time. resisted the temptation to blog, and my "strike" was fun. oh well.

worm, melmo, bernie(though you don't count), lybra, remiel, naivete, MnMlover, ct (whoever you are, i just hope you aren't my civics tutor who happens to have those two letters as initials), lai, wurm, eman, megawati, bob, fruzmatman, comradeagainstretrobitchfromhell, thematt, nickywicky, foot. thanks for giving me a reason to continue being your eternal online jackass. -grins-

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ok, next. i don't know what to say. there's been lows and highs this week. highs. HIGHS! can you imagine it, i never thought i'd be seeing that this year after that torrential barrage of setbacks.

i guess with that ceremonial gesture, it means that things have been set in stone finally, for time immemorial. 10 years, 50 years, a 100 years down the road. it will not be there. i will not be like achilles, remembered down the ages. i will not be like any of you, immersing in an utterly unique and exclusive experience, of which i feel a dull jealousy but determined resignation. no amount of fantasy will change the fact, and it's time to move on to greater things, although that will be hard to find at the moment.

is honour an outdated concept? no, but stupidity definitely isn't. now that's interesting as to why i even considered embarking on the impossible cos i've never even ruminated over honour, partly cos i guess my life was too finite when compared to the great heroes throughout history or because i've never been associated with sports that occasionally border on harmless vaingloriousness. but that's what it's all about isn't it? honour is something to be proud of. and why? because the rewards are intangible. it's up to one's own prioritisation, what's really important. material gains, or something even bigger, beyond all that. honour. it's about pride. about glory. about feeling flattered to partake in landmark events. and it's something that i haven't experienced yet, which someday, i hope i will.

raffles rugby. i'm impressed. i really am. for a sharp cynic like me, that's 'nuff said i suppose. but am rather ticked off at non-cheerers. and being a non-councillor, its bloody paiseh to cheer when no one else around you is. so i had to move to a different section where it was much louder and could just go the whole hog. hey. there was parallax error from my original viewpoint, and their ego banner was simply, "the best cry like the rest", instead of "mess with the best cry like the rest" which got me bewildered and bemused, not to mentioned amused. well, yeah. they're crying now. ironic. oh well, whatever. winning is everything, anyway.

mmm. am really happy, cos life's looking up. i've got some stuff to occupy me next term, so i won't feel a sense of dimunition (thinks back to horrible workethic gp compre we got). the holiday mood started since gp paper 2 ended. yup. today we were really spas-ed out. tons of people just ponned school today, and the canteen was notably quieter. i suppose the rain had a part to play too, in making me DELIRIOUSLY HAPPY!!! i don't know why bingles finds pc boring. i think pc absolutely rocks, and it was nice. sea lect was funny. cos bingles and i came back to the lt after crapping around in the canteen, and we never saw c.tju once who'd gone out to get stuff. lucky us! and then we were all comparing handwriting, and trying out different prints. and then nicole asks me before maths tutorial, "should i lose it or should i keep it?" and i say "when?" and she goes "tonight" and we all start laughing and i start singing "like a virgin" the whole day. and mathlect with yonghui's typical unintentional ejaculatory gripe about fake chocolate prizes, and the "happy" song, it was great.

but diana degarmo lost, and i'm sad. but fantasia's good too, so no matter. and people, it isn't just about all that you know. think more simply and yet out of the box but you won't know really. doesn't matter. she rocks my socks! and she's so cute and fat like ms piggy that you wanna pinch her cheeks, and she's just 16 can you believe it! i want her for my girlfriend! hahaha.

and then there's you, although you don't know it at all. at least i hope you don't. argh. whatever lar, i think infatuation is a good way of keeping your mind off the heavier things in life. the things you do, the things you say, every little thing. just by being you. haha and no, thelady, i'm not referring to you. be happy! haha.

i worked so hard, to worm my way into your consciousness, when you forgot who i was. and i was thickskinned, and here i am. what happens next?

anyway, hi mel! she ordains a shoutout. so uh, hi! yup. i guess what i can say is, those who were there from the start, were there from the start for a reason, a very good one.

hmm. a thought just struck me. what if LinKin Park and Diana DeGarmo had a combined duet together? it would sound beautiful, i think. but i shudder to imagine how it would be, now that would be just too damned scary, and i'd probably cry if it happened. i mean yeah they're both very cool individually but not together. whatever! at the moment, i'll just get lost in my own little reverie. (and try to finish my overdue homework)
quixoticka eulogized @ 11:51:00 pm