why the hell isn't the tagboard working? it's got that irritating "temporary error" sign, and it's only afflicted on certain boards, not all. this is so unfair! i want comments~!!

blah. moveandgroove. rhyme liao lor. haha. it was not bad i suppose. but i kinda agree that vj had more of a carnival feel. i think it all lies in the campus. there's nothing more. perhaps the people. but i hardly believe that rafflesians are slouches in the enthu department. so.. it's the damned campus. with its poorly lit corridors.

reached around 10, and as i was walking to school i saw these ri and rgs kiddies walking towards the mrt. at TEN? that's so darn early! and they were all wearing their ORA shirts.. (which looks more and more hideous each year). i mean it could be because this year it's at rj so they feel intimidated by all the big korkors and jiejies, haha. or maybe it's cos it's not their own school so less of their friends are there and they're just fulfilling their obligation? so typically rafflesian, to run off after what they need to do, to go home to mug.

talking about mugs, i bought a raffles mug! it's quite quaint. i've never had a black mug before. and i like the logo. the logo is so matrix-y, it reminds me of REACH last year. and the whole orientation experience. all for the price of five dollars. hmm. entre isn't that useless as it looks after all. hope they continue churning out more goodstuff.

talentime was quite good, some of the performances. like dance. and H and H! they're fantastiphenomenacal. they rock. and the brainiest rafflesian was quite funny, especially towards the end. props to 1a13a for a great effort for staging the gameshow, which had quite a good turnout. i'm glad i didn't take part. i would have been eliminated in the first round. although the second and third rounds are relatively easier. haha. and there was a qiulianbanmian question!! it's such a travesty that mark won, being a chinese high boy and that he cheated.. but he's offering to sell the voucher for 20bucks! maybe i should take him up on his offer if it hasn't already been sold yet.

haha talking to nick now and imagine this scenario. an ri guy goes to acjc but immediately wears acjc uniform the first day to avoid stigma. he tells everyone he's a malaysian scholar or something. then goes on (miraculously) to become the head of council and on promnite he reveals his true identity as a raffles prefect or something. ok that's just plain ridiculous but deliciously ironic.

mmm. painted one of the mural tiles for the art club collage thingie. not a bad effort, considering the praise (even if it may be polite and/or hypocritical) it's got and my grades for art and craft in primary school (always a C. c for cmi.) and it's got green on it! got kayhian to take a photo of it so now it's eternally in digital form.

hmm. and during talentime i helped lynette ok! i'm really her lucky star for mickeymouse-spotting. i think lynette's damn funny. she's so sweet and yet so fiercely protective. =P haha. i also need someone like that. to be my lookout. and she helped me today! although i think ultimately in the end it means nothing. you know, like a soldier who's blown his cover. ahh whatever.

to you: i really hope you be careful. you lead a dangerous existence, a life of risk. i don't know what thrill you get out of it. i mean, i DO know. but perhaps i'm too much of a coward to follow the same path. cos like the road less travelled, it's really full of thick undergrowth and stuff. (no pun intended at all, that's sick) or you could say i'm a realist who realises that in the end it's unfeasible. it's only full of hurt and regret. but i suppose you're making the most out of it. make hay while the sun shines, and make love while we're still young.

and besides, just cos it's damn easy doesn't mean much. it's just cheap. there's no kick at all. i mean, i'm weird. i like to go for challenges yet not being able to achieve half of them. yet i feel dissatisfied to achieve something which is easy to. but i still rather choose the former. i suppose that's why i'm where i'm at now with nothing and not a councillor in vj. but i digress. i tend to have the same attitude towards what you talked about. it would be nice to have the superpower of mindcontrol, or something, but what's the point if it isn't voluntary, you know?

love, of any type, whatever its form or who it's directed to, is always elusive, wherever you go. someone told me that you can't go searching for it. and i suppose that's right in a sense. you let it come to you. but then again, if you did no one would get anywhere. it does require some bravery and some initiative. scorn? perhaps not scorn. but jealousy. how can such things be available to everyone. really, how can it just be there. for anyone to pluck and yet it keeps slipping away. do i have to learn to love myself first?

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anyway, on a brighter, more bacchalania-c note, i'm happy! a few days ago i was random channel-surfing, and channel20 exists again! it was cancelled for about a year or so. apparently cos it propogated the wrong morals. but puh-lease, even cartoon-network was cancelled too. it's just for the sake of our studies. sheesh. but cartoons still aren't there. maybe cos i'm more guai than my brother, haha. i don't know if it's a slip-up or if my dad's really rewarding me for god knows what, because i did request for its reinstatement sometime ago, but i think it'd be safer not to notify him at all and just clandestinely watch MTV in the afternoon.
quixoticka eulogized @ 1:57:00 am