have you ever sat in an exam hall, fiddling with your pen, watching a sea of bobbing heads and hands moving across the table from left to right in unison- and then you look at the clock every 5 minutes, and think to yourself, "i've got too much time"?

yup, i experienced that for history. mmhmm. haha, my very first academic failure in my life, and i don't mean literally. i've failed before but i've never exactly given up on a test. step one to getting F OFF grades. -grin- i'm not really worried about it, but it definitely means some kind of wake up call. i suppose.

it's quite funny the different grade combinations i hear people -aspiring- to get, from FOFF to ODAC to the latest one i've heard so far,(get this, can you believe it?) FOOD?! (i expected better from you, sigh.) well, let's see what else you can get, other possible permutations. BEAD. CAFE. ACED. ABBA. DEED. FADE. CODE. FEED. DEAD. ok this is getting rubbishy.

my econs wasn't that bad, but i don't foresee myself doing phenomenally well. i need help in answering DRQs. anyway, damnit. i don't know my class number! shaded some random number. ah well.

ugh, and what on earth!! i think someone should look into the gender factor playing a part in leniency for marks in literature. looking at ri and now, females are definitely the more fastidious sex when it comes to that. my silas marner essay had "moments of insight"? what on earth is that supposed to mean. sounds like i'm some himbo who stumbles upon the occasional epiphany. i'm Damn Demoralised now. heh.

and i feel like kicking myself. that moment in time, on the staircase. and our lines of vision crossed. and i looked away, being dao. for no reason at all. now i just look like some aloof, rude asshole. and that blur, hi? look, that probably shrugged itself off and semi-chided itself for being overly-enthusiastic. after all, michael is just a friend. and by some fluke of idiocy, the proper positions weren't followed. deprived of some form of superficial motivation. damn.

oh, and camy and i saw a woman who looks like michael jackson on the train today!!
quixoticka eulogized @ 7:39:00 pm