alright. i have no idea how come my post got deleted. bloody irritating. ugh !!! i'm back after a hiatus of a fortnight or so. and you know what to do - tell your friends that this place is updated! ok i shall just say whatever comes to my mind. susilo rocks!!! he's damn shuai4. score one point for guys with 5 syllable names where 3 come from their surname ending with an "oh" sound!! wooohooo !!

hmm. lysistrata. was madness. thanks to andi and zx's parents who brought me back on various days. i would have died if i had to go home on public transport everynight. received a gamut of reviews from the great to the ghastly. i personally thought i was better on friday than saturday, but on the whole saturday's performance was better. woochiao, as usual, was criticial about my acting. no big surprise there. :) and nick you owe me 12 bucks still, i know you read this.

things i recieved (really dig the last 2):
*a HUGE sunflower from berns
*a rose from nicole
*a daisy from the directors, with personalised notes
*flowers from the play that were strewn, which matin so kindly picked up for me. heh.
*a rockmelon from joshua and kenneth with the words "YOU ROCK" on it. cute.
*and last but DEFINITELY not least, nodoubt's tragic kingdom from azizul. which was a weird initial listen but it didn't disappoint. i knew my instinct, and the tons of rave reviews couldn't be wrong. one of my favourite cds now.

oh, my costume was silly at first but i think it became pretty funky in the end, haha. it was like astroboy meets superman meets metrosexual. and i had 3 funny chorus people in the same situation as me. =D hmm, ironically the production which probably had the most people there to support me was the one i cared least for. i think we started out all wrong, almost everyone didn't feel enough for it, didn't invest their whole heart and soul into it, and i don't deny it for me either. lesson learnt - passion is paramount.

going to RI was.. interesting to say the least. it seems so familiar and yet so distant. i don't know if i really want to move anymore. it doesn't seem so right now. like, bringing this all this "raffleshit" and plopping it next to ri would be desecrating sacred bishan. i miss the library. i miss the atrium. i miss the classrooms. i miss the gryphon's lair. i miss the english studio. i miss LT1. i miss the cdc storeroom. i miss chemlab chemicals. more importantly, i miss the times when we were all together in these places and not spread far and wide like we are now.

anyway, it's good that most girls smell nice most of the time. but when they stink, it's disgusting! girls shouldn't stink!!! haha. i thought only guys had BO.

my work is still mostly untouched. thank goodness for teacher's day holidays, althought i don't feel much for most of them. 3 more days of school! and then it's one week of.. i dunno what. shit gotta pon school more often. catch up catch up! i'll strive to hand in any outstanding assignments by next friday. so that i don't carry and baggage into the oneweekrespite.

vindicated and thereason are such irritating songs! the former is angsty for no reason, has senseless lyrics, and has many people singing after it thinking it's "cool" to be so angsty and senseless, believing they're vindicated whilst doing so. hell, i bet 3/4 of the people who listen to it don't even know what the damned word means. it's just spiderman-2 and hip to them. dashboard confessional is good, but i hope they don't become famous for that. it'll be terrible if they did. thereason... is just a HIGHLY overplayed song that tends to become more grating than numbing, unlike other overplayed songs.

ugh! *yonghui style* kevin is silly. hahaha. and kayhian and choonhwee are cunning papparazi wannabes. 'nuff said. well at least it adds some excitement life. can't die of boredom at this stage.

ayy. S-cube was very inspiring i think. i don't know what the purpose of being in OCS is, and i think most probably i won't make it there. but wow! camaraderie! male bonding!! haha. all those oft-thrown about phrases. need to work on my napfa though. finally had it, and i don't want an extra 3 months to make a great experience become tedious. but i think i can see why people would say that the army is where the "boys become men" very, very fun. i am after all, but a boy.

blue.. for a boy.
that is why patriots are a bit nuts in the head.
how right you are, mr mcgough.

changed my braces colour.. got them tightened for the first time. not that bad actually, and it's fiery vermillion now, not red. because vermillion is orangey-red. it's not pink la! although it looks like that from far.

i was so lucky with the locker incident. glad they caught that j3 bastard, lethimhaveit, whoever he is. heh, one column of lockers. nic, lyn and camy were all affected but i wasn't. and no, it's not because my locker is at the bottom. i used a strong lock. :)

ah well. time to do my segment on various anonymous dedications. most likely if you're the one mentioned, you'll know it.

you are not a bitch really. there are real ones out there. and even if you are, it's in a good way. you're just very assertive and know what to focus on. don't worry about it, i'm sure the others understand. they can't hold grudges for long anyway, knowing their personalities. and especially since they aren't me.

talking about bitches and grudges- you woman, can just go to hell. i can feign happiness if i deign to, but just not for you. lies, lies, you write a pack of them and more. and you have the audacity to admit it. you egotist, i'm not a fantastic actor but i'm not bad either. i can very well pretend to be perky. it's not very hard. stop spreading your shit.

fantastic acting. you do not possess. but you were after all a newbie, and i cannot fault you on that. and there was that period where i was just so crazy over you. and i don't know where it should go from here. like a thermostat, you played with me. you played the game of hot and cold. and then when yours went haywire for real, and no longer metaphorically, i doubted. heh.. i feel so ashamed of thinking that way. sorry, really.=(

doubting you. i don't think i do anymore. less and less each day. i begin to trust you more and more. and i can't help but feel flattered at the way you think about me. but really.. i don't know if i can accept it at this point in time.

that's about it at this point in time. doesn't mean i don't think about other people. but these are pertinent at this point in time. i shall leave now. hope i satisfied all those who complained that my blog was down. well, it is since i can't see it, along with about 10 other blogs i frequent (computer being a huge bitch), which really really irks me. i have a good mind to just go to the comp lab one day to surf all these blogs. (talking about that, i saw many people blogging in the MRL that day. interesting.) see you people soon.

quixoticka eulogized @ 11:11:00 pm