ETA: going back home today with you, makes me remember that you are not merely an online presence, but a real person. it also reminds me of why i liked you before, and why i still like you now, in a different way. your very essence is just to shine. and yes, there is more i know. there is more, there is more. don't doubt yourself, we are unique but you are more unique than others. and emotional awareness and acumen is the most important. now, if only we had the chance to extend our relationship in other ways instead of just one, binary, flat dimension. we'll laugh together at all the losers with their worm-eyed views on life.

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at this point in time, it looks like i will not be taking on any Special Papers next year.

lit today is so unstable, i've never felt more unsure about a paper before. well, have to see what booth and e-ching think first. bleh. just maintaining my CT grade will be a challenge.

math was a horrible 3 hour nightmare, right smack in the front middle of the class. it had me breezing through the first page, working up a real sweat on the second, and then a volley of crap after crap at the end. *counts* minus 7, minus 10, minus 10. =) getting a D would be good enough. that kohsiewyong or whoever it was was right man... it's enough for the arts student to get their 40marks... AND NOTHING MORE.

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i think being a girl rocks. they have life SO much easier than guys. i wouldn't mind being a girl, with their few physical limitations, like PMS, menstruation, enforced sitting on toilet seats that risk catching an STD. in exchange for the multitude of social benefits. and you're bound to get away with being a bitch, because all girls are bitches anyway.

do not get me wrong, this is not a misogynistic comment and neither is it one that throws a questionable light on my sexuality or gender inclinations. it is an objective view on the advantages and disadvantages of being a girl. the only thing i can see guys benefitting from, is from the mostly pervalent patriachal societies our world runs on. but that is threatened by reverse sexism of our era, and scientific advancement that renders the male genitalia redundant.

all a girl has to do is shout, "molest" and a guy would be screwed. a guy shouts that and people would just laugh. i think men should begin to step up before we begin to get trampled over by women. this is not the times of Othello, when women were second-class and served as a foil for men. this is the 21st century. and the quest for equality appears to be a well-disguised cover for one of domination. i wouldn't blame them though, they've been through so much shit from men over the centuries.

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after promos. need to run. once and for all.

and who wants to take SATs with me? your last chance before the new version with stupid essays. it's on december 4 or january 20-sth next year, but i'm most probably going for the former. speak now, or forever hold your piece/peace/piss. registration ends soon.

quixoticka eulogized @ 8:39:00 pm